Officially discouraged....

I had the second part of my testing with the personal trainer today.
Part of it was a test to see how my cardio fitness was.  So I hopped onto the treadmill, all the right buttons were pressed and I briskly walked up an increasing incline for 5 minutes.  
At the end of the test the treadmill screen gives you a number that indicates your level of cardio fitness.  I didn't see what my number was but I did see that the screen said 'below average'. 
Seriously??!  I've been doing over 8 hours exercise a week for nearly a year! And we don't just skate around slowly bumping into each other.  I sweat every single practice, usually to the dripping stage. How can I still be below average??  
I'm starting to think my body does the same thing with fitness as it does with tanning.  
I burn, I peel, I am lily white again.  
Maybe I also exercise, I collapse, I am still unfit.  

What do I have to do to get fit??
Looking for the silver lining I guess it means that I was in desperate trouble this time last year and without derby I would still be there.  I guess it also means that I haven't imagined that it's been really really hard work to get as far as I have already.  
The only thing for it is to keep going, keep exercising, and hope that before long the screen will read 'average.'  

The measure of a (derby wo)man

So yesterday I had some of my beginning stats done with the personal trainer. It was bad.
Even with skating 3 trainings a week my fat content is embarrassing, too embarrassing to even share here, and you know I normally tell you all the shocking details.  
Let's just say I looked it up on the chart and I'm O for 'Oh golly I really must do something about that'.  
I honestly don't give a crap what the scales say - losing weight is a destructive goal for me - what I weigh doesn't matter.  

How much of me is useful functioning muscle compared to how much is soft padding that is bad for my health - that I can care about.  So it's back to situps and lunges every other day at home for me.  
And getting some balance into my body too.  One thigh measures 3cm bigger girth that the other, I'll start walking around in circles everywhere if I don't do something about that soon!  
Next week I do some more testing - heartrates etc. - I'm really hoping that it's better since last time I did it...Confession from the derby heart.